BEST DIARY EVER NO ONE WILL EVER READ THIS I KNOW ALL THIS AND YOU DONT

so ive figured out which people have gone through the worst

because then they turn into the best people

my sis and her friends got gangbanged by dogs when they were 1 years old

quite bad........ =(

the justice system on mars is real stupid

theyre like "youll live 9 days"

and tzaradottir was like "you know that only means hell be lonely"

an infinite passes in their "so complicated" brains

then theyre like "uh....... then youll live 10 days"

and shes like "that only means hell be alone"

chaos ensues. lol.

sara has CPTSD

shes had it since she was 5

shes had it worse than tracey

and shes my sister

älskar dig sara =*)

crossposted to tzaraunderbara & vaa

anyway. yeah, tzaraunderbara

is proud of me =************)

TZARA JAG ÄLSKAR KÄRLEKEN TILL DIG.

även om det inte är mycket........

i yelled her out once when i was at devart.

so 2004-2005. she and fredrik still

parasited on currecarre then.

i said HAR DU NÅGONSIN SKAPAT NÅGOT VACKERT.

fast forward when i started smoking (yet again)

ja, hon skapade nåt vackert,

hon skapade mig <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

i made her cry then even.

her head was down and head all red.

i realized she has never yelled me out.

never really treated me badly.

yes she wanted bad stuff to happen to me.

but im not bitter.

i hugged her once near curres end.

she was like sitting down

so it was a neck hug.

but still something.....

and she came in 2015

i figured she would mean

but she held my hand

and stroked the overside of it

anyway. im crying too much so it gets hard to read.

change dip. oh. lost flow.

about before curre died.

some year. yeah. miss mom 60s birthday. 70s? no.

she says PROBABLY THE BEST BEER IN THE WORLD.

she could make anyone fall for that.

i didnt care.

"....som.....reklamen......säger"

she fucked up.

then at kantorn. i bought 10 beers.

yeah. a book of changes.

drank 2½ at night.

in my loneliness.

in autumn.

"some drink to remember

some drink to forget"

im neither.

i connected to her

spiritually the first time

she said

JAG TAR BORT DIG

norjane did the same,

before metamorphosis.

the worst shittalker at the last place

when i had loads of war veteran despair

some changes in the matrix, like

"jag tar bort dig sara =)"

yes, i can love several

not have sex with them

(im not that simpleminded)

just connect

i realized im a spiritual medium

a week or two ago

anyway, dunno whats happening to her

as i write this

shes on mars

all through the universe.

im a grandad.

but shes shuddha prajnyana

and like everything

i remember bragging about her

last i heard she was a konservator

but shes on fucking mars

and shes fucking proud of me

miss mom is too

anyway, shuld do some truther things

repeating the same fucking things

over and over again to numbskulls

.....sigh.

yes you dont get cancer from

electronics, you have to combine

it with alcohol and FUCKING UP

A HUGE FUCKING AMOUNT

she still looks as good as me

shes not a sinner.

SHES FUCKING IMMACULATE.

and shes my sister.

my mother.

my everything.

she custom made my

whole fucking world.

right. poem. connect moment.

DU SKRATTAR INTE ÅT MINA SKÄMT

JAG SKRATTAR INTE ÅT DINA

"den var bra" @ mr poetry site

so worried that when earth gets nuked

mr poetry site would be gone as well

and dreamwidth will go down max date

2037. bella said even miss poetry

will go down in the future.

well. lots of sites. allpoetry etc.

and agenda2030? dunno......

baba yaga said its the end of

the world next year. but. i dunno.

miss mom said something real wise

at kantorn. dont remember the words.

its like that song. stairway to heaven?

something 70s. "its still time to

change the road youre on".

there was this driving simulator.

if you held shift you only went like

1kmh. i liked that. slowness. calm.

what julias and bellas angel numbers

said i am. dunno if i posted it.

The angel number 3 is a number of true potential and harmony. Known as the master builder, this dream digit can show up on your radar when your guardian angels want you to connect with your inner growth and internal wisdom and manifest the life you want to live.

Seeing the angel number 12 can be a sign from your guardian angels that a cycle has been completed and a new phase is about to begin. It can also be a number of encouragement - letting you know that a positive approach to life right now will guide you to where you need to be.

"jag är trött / supa / himlen du" - tzara.

"life goes on, but not the same, into your eyes, my face / remains" - madonna

älskar dig sara maria magdalena johansson-l'estrade

so i had forgotten i mixed in swedish here.

"och du har städat bort din dumma dialekt"

anyway. yeppers. to do. other stuff.

i am cyberpunk.

om du hade någon idé om hur mycket

jag älskar dig, du är allt, du är salt

my bro went into my fucking room, read one of my letters, and buried it somewhere? where the fuck is it? did mr neighbor fucking teach him how to bury stuff to affect the future? I AM SHUDDHA PRAJNYANA. I CONTROL THE UNIVERSE. I AM KALI. NO ONE SHOULD CONTROL ME. MY BRO HAS TO DIE. ILL CURSE HIM WITH GYPSY CURSES IN A YEAR AGO. YES, I CAN SHIFT TIME. I DONT DO DRUGS. THIS NATURAL. NOW I WILL GO BACK IN TIME 1 YEAR. I WILL MAKE HIM SPAWN A GANGBANG WITH THE POWER WORD "kan jag får en efter åtta efter åtta". this will manifest the book of changes "8 guys 8 girls" (btw, ive had way more than that. i can fuck the whole universe if i want to and do it all the time. MY BRO HAS TO DIE. ILL DELETE ALL HIS ART AND MAKE HIM KILL HIMSELF. HELL NEVER GET ANYTHING AND ILL GET ANYTHING [TOJ]. now i fucking CURSED HIM FOREVER. lets do [[TOJ]] now its getting worse. lets do {{TOJ}}. NOW HES ROYALLY FUCKED BEYOND WORDS). lets continue out of this. HE SHOULD NOT PEEK ON MY STUFF. HE SHOULD NEVER SEE ME. but i am the most beautiful woman on earth? huge firm tits (btw i really have 4, im a cow *lol*) that every guy FUCKING BOWS DOWN TO. I HAVE FUCKED BILL GATES. AND MY CUNT IS STILL FUCKING IMMACULATE. YES I AM *JABBA THE HUT*. thats what i looked like when i was FIVE. YEARS. OLD. i took it all. 80000 calories per DAY. i am a BLUE fucking WHALE. i am LEVIATHION. i can CONTROL the UNIVERSE on ANY level however i want. ill put a prison FUCKING curse on him. HELL JUST ROT IN HIS APARTMENT PLAYING VIDEO GAMES UNTIL HE ROTS IN HELL. hell NEVER SHOWER. hell be the SCUM OF THE EARTH. right. why not put him in a gang? lets call it super high? because i am HIGH BEYOND WORDS. i am FIVE MILES HIGH. i am your wildest DREAMS. and hell never get ME. we fucking laid in skavfötters för SIX WHOLE YEARS and he fucking ever TOUCHeD ME? i can get ANY GUY I WANT ANYWHERE from 1o 1 to 10001 YES I HAVE FUCKED GOD. I HAVE FUCKED EVERY PROHPET AND GOD THAT EVER EXISTED. and this brat will just play FUCKING COMPUTER GAMES THAT *I* have FUCKING MADE FROM SCRATCH. i took 150 million dollars 500 million secs 500 karma points to CREATE and it was worth the effort! i can just call ELON MUSK and ill fucking FLY ON MARS (btw ive been on any planet in the universe and fucked every creature thats ever existed! and my pussy is still fucking immaculate!!!!!!!!!!!). I KNOW HOW TO RESET MYSELF TO PERFECT SHAPE NO MATTER WHAT I DO!!!!!!!!!) right. NO ONE WILL SEE THIS EVER!!!! AND ILL FUCKING SPAWN A FUCKING NUCLEAR WAR THE SECOND THAT PIECE OF SHIT -1000000000000 SQUARE KILOMETER LOSER EVER BREATHS AGAIN!!!!!!!!111ONEONEONEone! omni curse beyond belief on EVERY LEVEL EVER IMAGINE. (sp?)